Step 1

2010-08-30T15:32:00.001-07:00

The first step I think will be to get informed, because you should never get into anything you are not prepared for, also you never want to look like an idiot and I want to impress my teacher when I find him. I also want to be able to say this is what I want to try, this is what I am worried about, this is what my limits are now, if I am comfortable later, when we have built that trust I would like to push my limits. So I have joined and started reading many forums. some include
http://adultbloghub.com
http://www.slaveregister.com
http://calgarysexforum.com

I am going under the profile little_pinki, and I have started reading post like crazy. As I come across things I will share my questions and thoughts here. as well as post them on the sites, so that I will hopefully get answers, tips and whatnot. I will of course share these answers with you.

First thing I learned from reading online, read everything before you post on these forums cause you don't now what will happen in the future, so make sure you now their privacy polices and make sure you now what you are posting and who can see it. This is good thing for everyone and anyone no mater what be it twitter, facebook, blog or forum. This is always good advice when you are posting adult content.

Second thing the magic shop the vanishing rabbit (located on center street )that I go to to pick up little magic tricks is used by a lot of people for their soft cotton magic rope for bondage games, because it is so soft on the skin. Hum who knew!

I also checked out the p3 gathering site which looks to have a lot of good info, meet ups and classes in Calgary. Only thing is, I will not go to a meeting where I don't know at lest one person because I don't feel safe and I don't want to tell anyone of my family members what type of a meet and great or class I would be going to because I don't want them to now. There for I have run into a problem that way. I am going to have to figure out something somehow.

I have provided links to sites and forums on the side bar, I recommend you check them out.

I am Organically Twisted... And I like it !

2010-08-25T19:53:00.000-07:00

So what if you’re a girl in her early 20s who for years now has had a secret fascination with bdsm, but her family thinks she is a virgin. So she can’t let anyone know or let on about anything to anyone but 2 of her friends, 1 who just shakes his head and the other crakes jokes.

What if it all started out as basic stuff role playing and tie me up just for fun stuff in daydreams that lead to more, deeper fantasies that slowly grew to a "I wish he would make me do stuff or spank me with a spanking whip". I don’t want to be in control tonight so you control me or sometimes wanting to be the one in control.

Only the problem is with no one is allowed to now and not knowing anyone who is into or has experienced bdsm. How in the world can she play out these fantasies of hers? How can she be trained and taught to do the right things and act the right way for her master?

I did not choose to like this or feel this way! I was born this way I am as I like to say Organically Twisted and I want a master, a top , a dominant to show me the ropes and lead me around like the lost puppy that I am.

So this is it my journey of learning and searching. I will share with you my fantasies, what I learn, sites I find and the steps I take to get one step closer to finding my teacher, who will lead me into the world I have wanted to join for so long.